I miss you

I miss you. I wish you would call me so I could breathe again. So many things remind me of you and I wish that they didn't so I could just forget about you. Simply because forgetting about you would make it easier to cope with this anxiety and loneliness. I wouldn't have to send you messages in hopes that maybe you will respond. I would be able to enjoy my time with others and not think about how you would know the answer to certain queries.

I miss you so much that I risk being shot down time and time again just on the rare chance that you might possibly take me up on my offer. Why do I put myself through such pain? Why can't I just let you go? I fear that if I do I may never see you again. That thought alone makes me feel sick in the pit of my stomach. I just need to hear from you on occasion to know that we're still friends. That you still care just the tiniest bit.

I miss you. Why do you never contact me?